Depression, Energies, and Choices

I feel negative energies around me that cloud my well being, I am depressed and ask for prayer. I have a hard time making decisions, hard to let go of the past, and want to move forward. Many distractions, and feel energies trying to destroy me. I have a son who needs me mentally and physically and go to Church. However, it it a daily battle and feel weaken. I want to be able to make decisions, feel good, provide financially for myself and my son, i want to forgive, id like to let go of what is holding me back...