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KUTLESS-I DO NOT BELONG
I love your radio station I listen to it online all the time but when Im in town I listen o in on the radio. I just wanted to reach out to you hoping this would help me... Well you see I suffer from Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) and Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD. When I was young I was sexually assaulted for a few years and growing up I was fine and I went to my day to day life like every child. Well when I was in 11th grade everything hit me at once… I had sever GAD and PTSD and on top of that I had depression. I thought I was going crazy and didn’t know how to cope with it all at once. At one point I kept thinking I’d be better off dead and that no one would even care, that I was a burden to people. For a year I was like this then somehow I started to change and I went to relationship after relationship and I felt normal again. I felt loved and needed and on my way home from my bf house I broke down and cried, I finally came to realization that I never solved my problems I was just covering it up and lying to myself. Then I finally decided I needed to really start going to church and I finally realized that I was holding on to all these problems and not letting go of the baggage so I let go and my depression died out and all but I have mild GAD and a mild case of PTSD. Now I feel it all coming back and my heart isn’t at a very good place and it just doesn’t feel right. I feel so lost and I just can’t stop crying because I know I’m falling apart and I don’t know how to stop myself from that. I just pray and hope. I just think if others pray for me it would help me a lot.
Sincerely Melody from Laguna Beach