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GOD REST YE MERRY GENTLEMEN BY JARS OF CLAY
I know the Lord forgives and loves us, but how can I forgive myself and put the past behind me? Everytime I am happy I remind myself of the bad things I have done in the past. I realize I am not the same person since accepting Jesus into my heart. Yet I continue to beat my self up. I sometimes feel I am a selfish person unworthy of being truly happy. I find myself in tears and despair. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I am blessed with beautiful children and grandchildren. I have good friends and my life is finally going where I want it to go. So why can't I accept this and be happy? Why must I always remind myself of the past? I just want peace.