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O HOLY NIGHT BY MATTHEW WEST
I think im a Christain..but latley I just don't know anymore. please help me. my history teacher talks alot about religion and i can't leave the class. shes egnostic? and she always downs christains. whenever im around my friends I don't act like how i used to act. i dont WANT to go to church anymore. its just not excitin to learn nobody ever wants to talk to me because im from mississippi and they all think im a goody good. my moms an alcholic and she always yells at me for not being a good christian but what about her? its hard to trust her. somtimes i just wonder whats my point? like why am i here? i just wanna be a kid not a mother. all i do is take care of my sisters while my mom gets to go to Georgia and be there. i dont like vegas. nobody ever asked me if i want to move. i want to see my friends. its hard to fit in here. then i go to church and i don't even pay attention. I yell more and more. I don't want to act like that but I don't know how to stop... my dad and family think they understand, i know they are just trying to help but they don't understand. I can't trust anyone. i have no one to talk to. i highly doubt you'll answer this because its not a prayer request. but could you just please tell me what i am suppose to do? please. i don't like who ive become i want to be the girl i was in hernando where everybody knows as the good christain girl and they like to talk to me and don't think im weird. please tell me what to do please...