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HERE I AM TO WORSHIP BY PHILLIPS CRAIG DEAN
My mom is such a wonderful woman. She spent a good portion of her life caring for her family. She raised four of her own children then took on the responsibility of three kids that belonged to her eldest daughter. My mom has already beat colon cancer and breast cancer. This was supposed to be the year she would be declared cancer free. My dad called me the other day and told me that he and my mother were preparing for emergency surgery to her spine. This afternoon he called me to say that the doctors called off the surgery due to my mother's heart rate dropping and that tomorrow they will be doing a biopsy to confirm their diagnosis of lymphoma. My mom will be facing radiation after this biopsy confirms their diagnosis. Please pray for healing and acceptance for me. I am really starting to doubt God. I know I shouldn't but I just don't understand why my mom. I know that I am being selfish and childish, but it's different watching others; watching other daughters lose their mom's. I have spent the last five years of my life serving others in nursing homes and I can understand and praise the deaths of those residents and help others through their greif. But I am not ready to grieve my mother not ready to see my dad by himself. He has grown up with my mom they have been married for over fifty years.