my bad past

I've in so much pain cuz. About a year1/2 ago I went through so much that I could never forget it..
Here's what happened I got caught up with a 28 yr old man I easily felt in love wit him that he tricked me into thinking he loved me to...
Now today is his court date to tell how much time he is spending ...god u know who this man is his Nam is Eddie Urbano ....a man I forgive but am still trying to for give my self I am only 16 but I'm sadden by what I've have done to the people I love most I ask for forgiveness an hope that my life ahead of me will be better .....thank u god for listening
In Jesus name amen