Prayer for my marriage

I ask prayer for my marriage I have been struggling for over two years now. Unable to move on from the past hurts my husband has caused me. I say that I do forgive him but what does it really mean to forgive? Two years ago I had left and got my own place because I had found 1500 text messages between the two of my husbands old classmate who is also married. I want to move on and work on our marriage but the trust has been broken we have no children together I have contemplated divorce but I know God hates divorce. Please pray for my marriage and me so that I can turn my heart back to my husband and for God to give me the strength. I don't think my husband is ready to leave although I've asked many times I am not a perfect wife no one is I just pray for restoration for God to remove my anger and show humility as Jesus showed humility on that cross for me.