Prayer for Tim & Nancys marriage

We need prayer for our marriage. I am married to an unbeliever for 32 years. I am at my wits end and am praying for a miracle. Please God give him and I wisdom and mercy to seek help in God. He is very anti God. He keeps hardening his heart. There is no love or affection left in our marriage. We need a refreshing of the Holy Spirit. He does not want to give up his addictions. He just totally ignores me. It is so hard. I don't know what to do anymore. We are at a crossroad again. The D word Divorce word has been thrown around. I don't want to divorce because I am a Christian but this kind of love has already made me go to the hospital and I have gotten very sick. Is love suppose to hurt this bad. We both need Gods healing very badly. Heal us Lord that is my prayer. My husband has no forgiveness and he keeps records of it.